I do love myself with all of these little imperfections and moments of uncertainty. It might not always look like it, and sometimes I might forget it, but there is a flip side to every coin. Every rose to every thorn. Every sunrise following a sunset. I am eternally a child of the crossroads and I wouldn't change a damned thing about it ❤
Category: Daily life
Pay Attention
Remember that Hyde was there under the surface the whole time.
What Do You See?
I stumbled for an answer for what felt like an eternity, desperately glancing back up at myself and then back down at the floor, waving my hands to show frustration and sighing with exasperation before looking back up and with a slight shake of my head saying "Nothing. I don't see anything".
Transire Benefaciendo
I didn't have anything to prove to anyone but myself.
Diagnostics
I am feeling a lot better though. I don't know what it is about having an official diagnosis that made it easier to accept what's happening in my mind all the time, but it does. It gave me a goal post. And I'm not going to fight getting the help I need anymore.
I Remember Everything (What I hate most).
Maybe the first step is this, though, too. Another brick in the wall of why I'm me and accepting me for what I am. I hope so. It's what I want to aspire to most...to be a person I can finally be proud of.
Life Lessons
What other people think about you isn't any of your business. What your mind whispers to you of dark things and insecurity when you lay awake isn't any of your concern, either.
Touching Walls
can almost feel the concrete slamming up into my face with a few, and my internal dialogue reminds me that this process is inevitable. I convinced myself a very long time ago that I didn't need to be important to other people, even if they meant the world to me, and thus it would be easier to let the heartbreak roll off me.
Chain reaction
Being a Virgo should be a a listed super power somewhere, just for the record.
If we make it through December..
In December, when the days are at their shortest, we begin to ask for and welcome the light back into our lives as the wheel turns. I'd like to think that this year has been all about circling back out of the darkness for me, waiting for the light to come back through. And it is coming through...one day at a time.