The Loss of Possibility represents the loss of the Unknown: The things you never got to build together, the conversations you will never have, the experiences you will never know. And its in that Loss and the knowledge of its magnitude that the true heartache lies.
Category: Daily life
Closure
Then there are days when I'm not even sure I'm real. I look in the mirror at myself and wonder who the woman is staring back at me because she looks and feels older, sadder, and more broken than I could have ever pictured myself being. It can't be me. Six months ago, I was happy - laughing every day, smiling every day, cooking, cleaning, working, talking, touching, BEING with him in every sense of the word. And now..its like staring into a black pond and knowing you have to reach in but not wanting to know what you'll find.
Goodnight
The whisper of “Goodnight”.
What You Taught Me
You taught me to be the best version of myself. To love myself. To admire myself. To see myself through your eyes and let the world see how amazing I could be. I'll carry that with me forever. ❤
A Candle Is Lit
The Numbness is Fading
This post is going to feel random because I haven't had a chance to get back to this with everything going on. My husband, Alex, passed away on August 18th, 2016 at University of Washington Medical Center. He'd gotten a bad infection somehow - they aren't sure how - and it had spread through his … Continue reading The Numbness is Fading
What I Have Learned About Being A Significant Other
My husband Alex and I are coming up on our 5 year wedding anniversary in 4 months and I was challenged by one of my “friends” to put into words what all has changed and what I’ve learned about marriage since we’ve been together. I’m going to go a step further than that because our … Continue reading What I Have Learned About Being A Significant Other
Live Together
I'm sure I've posted about this before but I want to throw it out there again: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ocdSANOgsA I don't care if you're a Backstreet Boys fan or not. The message of this song (and organization I might add) is to set aside our differences and..well..live together rather than being divided. We could get a … Continue reading Live Together
The Spirit of Thanks
In the spirit of the Thanksgiving season, I'd like to share two stories with you. Most of you know that while I'm not a religious person, I am a spiritual person and there have been things in my life that have happened and have been very difficult to explain away. I don't offer explanations for … Continue reading The Spirit of Thanks
Please Stop.
Not sure if I should blog post or Facebook post...but I'm not going to be a very popular person today. Woke up to reading a lot of people supporting de-funding Planned Parenthood on my newsfeed and saying some really hurtful and deplorable things in regards to it and I won't be able to keep my … Continue reading Please Stop.