Plain and Tall – Part 2

Sara – Plain and Tall….

I’d like to take a blog post and devote it to the positive side of things, me in particular: the things I tend to forget when I’m feeling my most down and most vulnerable, the “ammo” that I sometimes forget to use when I feel like everything is wrong and the reason it’s wrong centers on me.

It’s true – I’m never going to be the girl that someone runs home telling crazy stories about. I will, however, always be the girl that someone isn’t afraid to take home and who goes out of my way to be kind with everyone I meet. I’m the one who you’ll gladly say is your friend (or whatever) and will always be respectful of your space – both literally and figuratively. I won’t destroy your heart AND I won’t beg for your attention.

It’s also true – I’m relatively “vanilla” and “boring” by most people’s standards. I’m also contemplative and really good at listening. I’m the one who gets phone calls at 2am just to talk and gladly accepts them. I’m the one you’ll put on speed dial to come get you out of an emergency day or night, and I’m the one who can give advice in an instant when you ask for it. I understand people’s behavior and I anticipate the needs of others. My door is always open, my heart is always open.

I love hard, I laugh hard, I work hard. My word is my bond and I will never make you a promise I can’t keep. I also will not make myself a promise I can’t keep and I put every ounce of everything I have in me toward my goals. I am ambitious and driven – I just don’t talk about it unless someone brings it up.

For all of what I consider to be dull, I have a lot of fire burning in my veins and in my soul constantly. I’ll keep you guessing and on your toes, for sure, and randomness should be expected.

I’m the one who dances in the rain, gets caught in tornadoes, runs through a field when the fog is so thick you can’t see. I’m the one who will make love for hours on a dark road in the middle of nowhere. I’m the one who will howl at the moon and sing with the wolves. I’m the one who will make the hours seem like minutes and the dark brim with light. I’ll be quiet and observant or loud and excited. I’ll always ask how you are first and I’ll always, always genuinely care about it.

So I guess…behind every dull moment, there is this bit of exciting and unpredictable under the surface. I just need to remember to tap into it and let others see it.